Sunday, December 28, 2008
心情好肉酸!!
21/12 冬至
在家里面, 姐姐是最帮得妈妈的好的帮手,因为她本身就很爱挫汤圆。还记得以前小的时候,姐姐每次都会第一个到厨房帮忙妈妈挫汤圆,而我和两个哥哥就贪爽一起到厨房帮忙。起初,我们每一个都很乖的挫。当时妈妈也感到开心,可以尽快挫好。谁知道 不到半小时,我和哥哥的汤圆越挫越大粒(想把汤圆快点搓好嘛!省时间!)不过,更离谱的是大哥还把汤圆叠成面粉娃娃!哈哈!!!可能还小不懂事;爱玩吧!想到搓汤圆的感觉就像玩泥浆一样,湿湿粘粘的,很好玩!哈哈! 因为我们家的妈妈非常爱干净,小时候我们就像被关在笼子里的小鸟一样,每天只能待在家玩‘铁甲人’。每次都很羡慕隔壁邻家小孩可以出去玩 ,而且还是每天在我们家的门口,不知是不是在炫耀!当我和哥哥把汤圆弄得一团糟时, 妈妈就会很生气说(朝州话: ai si lo…)然后便赶我们去客厅。所以,最后还是妈妈和姐姐俩搓完。哈哈!! 很顽皮对吧!
自己亲手做的汤圆
回想起小时候顽皮的我们,真的很想念。现在家中最小的我都已经21 岁了,最大的大姐也已经32 岁,哪里还会重温这些美好的时光呢?看着爸爸和妈妈一年又一年的老去,心里面真的很酸;很心痛!很想出国之前紧紧地抱着他们,可是真的没有这 种勇气。可能我们4 兄妹不像其他家的小孩 会和家人谈心开完笑吧!说真的我们4 兄妹对爸爸也蛮冷淡的,可能是因为爸爸看起来很严肃,反而每天和妈妈笑得稀里哗啦的,尤其是二 哥!因为他最会讨妈妈的欢心。看来家里妈妈最疼的还是二 哥,不过我们也不会因为这样而觉得妈妈偏心。因 为我们大家都了解爸爸和妈妈是非常疼爱我们的,不然他们也不会花那一笔钱来给2 个哥哥到英国创他们的事业啦!
还记得当初的currency rate for pound 是7 点多!walau, 还是两个人一起出国leh..想一想他们要种多少条菜才能得到这笔钱呢?哥哥走后又轮到我 国中毕业,要开始找学院了。终于给我找到KDU这间吃钱学院,它的学费贵得恐怖夸张,一个学期就要几乎十多千。看来我的diploma + degree加起来一共花了大约有一百千吧。而且,我是家里面就会花钱的一个,见什么要什么。他们也不会因为学费太贵而反对我进这间学院,反而还不断地学业上支持我!你们说,这还不疼爱我们吗?!这样的父母那里找!所以说父母对子女来说是最伟大的!
现在家里最小的我终于要走了,他们的心更加难过!2009 年的新年他们就要孤零零地度过了。想一想自己冷心的丢下他们而去到那么远,心里真的很抽痛!所以,我决定不 让他们送我机。因为我了解那种心情是怎样的!还记得哥哥走的时候,我和爸爸妈妈 都有去送机。当哥哥进闸的时候,妈妈也开始落泪了,眼睛也已经擦得红去了。最令我难忘的是平时很少和我们聊天的爸爸竟然眼眶的泪也在打转。这是我一生人之中第一次看到爸爸难过不舍得的样子。最后当哥哥check in然后走下escalator时,爸爸还走向前去和哥哥挥手。哇!这刻回忆永远都会在我脑海里,永远不会忘记!看来不让他们送机是没错的,我不想历史重演啦!
在家老是爱顶妈妈嘴的我,现在知道后悔了。现在知道顶嘴后感到非常惭愧!开始想念爸爸妈妈的声音。不晓得一年后的他们会变成怎样?在此也希望他们可以过得平平安安,身体健康!
哇!今年的冬至过得 比以前很 不一样,特别想念家人,很想一起吃团年饭!我们还要等到几时呢?我看爸妈比我更要期待准备六双筷子等待我们4 兄妹,一家齐齐吃团年饭的那一天来临。家里已经很久没有4 兄妹的声音了!爸妈,别担心! 我们很快就回家和你们团圆了。给我们一年的时间吧!
Friday, December 19, 2008
我的心情日记-《单念是痛苦的》

我到底要不要告诉他我的感受呢?天啊,到底他懂不懂我对他的感觉?还是他已经知道一切,装傻?看来好像没时间了!!我害怕告诉他以后, 我们会对彼此感到尴尬,或是比以前没那么好谈了。或许我太注重自己的面子了吧!真的没勇气 !!!总觉得他已有自己喜欢的对象了,而我却一厢情愿的对着他。不过,有时你说话的态度和句子真的很令人误会咯!都不懂是自己想太多还是你给的暗示?你的一句自然而然的话,一个小小的爱的举动,所产生的情感效应,是一般人始料不及的。 当你说我像个小妹妹,此刻真的觉得你是不可能喜欢上一个小妹妹的! 为什么我还i要执迷不悟呢?
唉,知道你的答案后又如何呢?如果是好的答案,又怎样,我都要离开了!相反,如果得到不好听的答案, 我看我有多“鱼”多难受。到最后还不是自己独自伤心,然后利用时间去疗伤。何必呢? 有时真的很讨厌自己,偏偏要知道真正的答案才甘愿! 啊!!!讲还是不讲??????那不曾说出口的爱,仿佛蕴藏在煤里的火焰, 仿佛深埋于低地的河流,是一生的燃烧和奔腾。
眼泪提醒我对自己好一点,有时候会这么想:就算需要很多勇气 ,我会试着学习,学习不断努力把你放在心里不去想了。很傻,很作弄对吧!人就是这么矛盾!!
意见多多的你们,现在是时候轮到你们发挥了!!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Missing the stupid dum dum

Few weeks ago, i had received the regard mail that you have been sent to me. But the feeling is gone, is totally different with last few months before. I remember last few months, i have been sent you heap of mails but you doesn't want to reply me at all. While, i've received the regard mail, i was read it with the normal feeling. i don't even feel excited. Can anyone tell me why? Should i happy about it? Are you still the person that i love the most in my heart? But i can sure that's not because of "time" to let me become like that. i need to appreciate them to accompany me all the way when i drop tears. They are my buddies.3 of them really help me a lot. Excluded them, i also need to appreciate 1 person. He give me a lot of comfort whenever i felt sad. I remember we were chat by phone scarcely knew time was gone 3 hours. I should be happy that can bring down this heavily loads so far.
Since one of my buddies told me these few sentences that you told other, i scarcely knew this matter until you conceal me till die. I was sworn i won't be forgive you. i was damn much disappointed about what you were said. It was badly burnt with the shame! After i heard that, it was vanity for me, it made me ill all the time! You have a wicked heart! I was always thought how to be healed of your sins. I was unhappy very unhappy for this matter. In the raw and chill midnight, i was never sleep because i was tried so hard cleared everything that you given before. I had packed everything into huge box with my tears. As yet, i couldn't even dare to open the box; i scare to see all those shit. I was promised myself i will open the box if you find me back in one day unless i will not be open the box even i miss you damn much.
My only thought was that, at last, i was to start a new life without you. I was glad at the moment, but then i had no idea of what i lay ahead.
P/S: be sure i forget you+me and everything! ensure my mind without you even though i miss you so much..
Sunday, December 14, 2008
我的心情日记- 《离别》
离別的情绪,总是会莫名其妙的來临,人行道上冷冷清清的,走在街上心情极度的低弱,想到即将要离开,心中的那种感觉,卻是说不太出來的难受,或許在不知不觉之中,有股情緒在默默的滋生。
突然想起一首阿妹的歌《永远的画面》。想着想着,眼泪也知道我现在那么难看的感觉,所以便不知不觉地滑落在我的脸颊上。
就要离别,勇敢的流泪,而你的眼神像在对我说“不要离开我”,超越了语言不说再见。当时我们却了解分开了并不代表会改变谁需要谁。白云和蓝天依偎才有美好的画面,大风一吹离得并不远,下次见面彼此都记得以前的美好回忆。离别以前已开始想念着对方,让期待紧紧连结这一切,走慢一点不管有多远放不下就代表不会变。那永远的画面当我想念你的时候,闭上双眼,你在我心里面。
Thursday, December 11, 2008
离别的心情总是非常难受
她几时才会回复我的信息?为什么她完全好像已经消失在我周围了??还是等到我到了美国才回答我呢??第二个可能性应该是hipopo的那班朋友已经告诉她了??很想见她一面,希望上天会给我这次机会。。
Monday, December 8, 2008
A living legend vanished in the Cameron Highlands jungles
Known to friends and strangers alike as Jim was born in Greenville, Delaware, America on March 21, 1906. Thai silk was virtualy unknown to the world befre Thompson arrived in Bangkok in 1945 and founded the vastly sucessful Thai silk Co. Ltd. Subsequently, Thompson was unofficially crowned the ‘Thai Silk King’. The world renowned company and its founder has been creadited with elevating the Silk trade in Thailand from an ailing cottage industry to the heights of International distinction. Tragically, Thompson’s legacies have long outlasted the man himself.
Unsolved mystery, Since 26/3/1967
What really happened to Jim Thompson??
The Thompson case was the subject of many livel debates and a number of explanations and theories were offered as to what really happened to him. To this day, the most tantalising question remains unanswered.
The Strange disappearance of Jim Thompson in Cameron Highlands

Moonlight Cottage
Characteristically, he had made appointments in Singapore for the following Monday. On the first day in Highlands he and one of his friends went for a walk in the jungle and soon realised they were lost.
“Don’t worry”, he said, “follow me along this stream and we’ll find our way out.” They did. But on the second day, while his friends were napping, Jim Thompson walked off in the jungle alone. He did not return..
Jim Thompson disappeared without a trace..
It was Dr. Ling who first reported Thompson’s failure to return to the cottage. He went to the police station at about 7:30 that evening.
The massive search which had never before been seen in the area..
Sunday, December 7, 2008
我的心情日记-《ROOMMATE》

Hipopo..when she was form 3,,i think..

Future pharmaceutist..hehe^^