Lack of you in my life almost 2 years, my heart missed a beat; i begin to feel that we are getting very far indeed. Our memories are slightly to become mistiness in my mind even your appearance also. His eyes are small with the square shape spec, under a pair of bushy brows, his grim face is like a carved mask when he is thinking something by seriously. As i well- known, he likes to wear formal shirt. His skin quite fair compared with other guys. i think time to stop thinking of your because i am afraid will cry again when i dream of u.
Few weeks ago, i had received the regard mail that you have been sent to me. But the feeling is gone, is totally different with last few months before. I remember last few months, i have been sent you heap of mails but you doesn't want to reply me at all. While, i've received the regard mail, i was read it with the normal feeling. i don't even feel excited. Can anyone tell me why? Should i happy about it? Are you still the person that i love the most in my heart? But i can sure that's not because of "time" to let me become like that. i need to appreciate them to accompany me all the way when i drop tears. They are my buddies.3 of them really help me a lot. Excluded them, i also need to appreciate 1 person. He give me a lot of comfort whenever i felt sad. I remember we were chat by phone scarcely knew time was gone 3 hours. I should be happy that can bring down this heavily loads so far.
Few weeks ago, i had received the regard mail that you have been sent to me. But the feeling is gone, is totally different with last few months before. I remember last few months, i have been sent you heap of mails but you doesn't want to reply me at all. While, i've received the regard mail, i was read it with the normal feeling. i don't even feel excited. Can anyone tell me why? Should i happy about it? Are you still the person that i love the most in my heart? But i can sure that's not because of "time" to let me become like that. i need to appreciate them to accompany me all the way when i drop tears. They are my buddies.3 of them really help me a lot. Excluded them, i also need to appreciate 1 person. He give me a lot of comfort whenever i felt sad. I remember we were chat by phone scarcely knew time was gone 3 hours. I should be happy that can bring down this heavily loads so far.
Since one of my buddies told me these few sentences that you told other, i scarcely knew this matter until you conceal me till die. I was sworn i won't be forgive you. i was damn much disappointed about what you were said. It was badly burnt with the shame! After i heard that, it was vanity for me, it made me ill all the time! You have a wicked heart! I was always thought how to be healed of your sins. I was unhappy very unhappy for this matter. In the raw and chill midnight, i was never sleep because i was tried so hard cleared everything that you given before. I had packed everything into huge box with my tears. As yet, i couldn't even dare to open the box; i scare to see all those shit. I was promised myself i will open the box if you find me back in one day unless i will not be open the box even i miss you damn much.
My only thought was that, at last, i was to start a new life without you. I was glad at the moment, but then i had no idea of what i lay ahead.
P/S: be sure i forget you+me and everything! ensure my mind without you even though i miss you so much..
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